A few weeks ago, Audrey got to stay home two out of her three mornings that she is normally at school because there was a snowflake (literally…ONE) and everyone–as usual–panicked! In the moment, I was so frustrated because I have been a little exhausted lately. Mostly because of Lauren. Since the day she was born she has basically been attached to my side. That really isn’t an exaggeration. Even as I type this she is sitting at my feet and I am begging her to go play with her sister in their playroom. And not only is she always wanting to be right by my side, she also barely lets daddy do anything for her these days. He tries to help but she yells, “I WANT MOMMA TO DO IT!!” I really don’t get much time to breathe. Thankfully, Audrey is definitely more independent these days and is happy to sit on the couch and watch a movie alone or quietly color or play with her toys.
Those three mornings a week that Audrey is at school is a little bit of a breather for me. Yes, Lauren is home with me but it still gives me just a little bit of quiet. So when I didn’t get that that week it was frustrating and I cursed all of the people in the Portland area who run for their bunkers the second they even hear the word snow.
Fast forward to this morning. Audrey had a field trip to another school to go see what it is like in kindergarten. Chris took her, but while they were gone the reality hit me that my first baby is less than 6 months away from turning 5 years old and starting kindergarten and she will be gone everyday. And yes–before you say it–I KNOW how fast they grow up. I am living it everyday already. She is so excited and she is learning and growing so much everyday.
The realization that this time with her at home most of the week, except those few hours 3 times a week, is coming to an end is making me rethink my attitude from a few weeks ago. I am chosing going forward to enjoy those days and to enjoy the fun-filled summer we have ahead of us. And no I am not one of those enjoy every moment people, because let’s face it, while being a mom is rewarding it is also exhausting and messy. But I do want to embrace and make more of the time we have together on a daily basis.
How do you find some quiet and peace in the midst of the chaos of raising tiny humans?